Fool's Place

Communication

2010-06-06T09:41:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to understand him. Does he know how important communication is?
On my part, I'm doing my best to communicate but it was him who seldom reply.

I was told many times that inorder for our relationship to work, an effort must be exerted.
I did!
Does he?
I'm already tired of reaching out.

2008-12-07T14:32:00.000-08:00

I'm such a good friend kasi I will take some stolen pictures in your most special day and won't give you a copy! I'll keep it and will suddenly surprised you after years.
You want a sample?
Here.. go... figure....

I never cease to amazed a good friend.

Remember this Lovielly....

2007-07-17T05:41:00.000-07:00

A few thoughts to consider the next time you are considering whether someone loves you. We know all the things love should be, but there are some things love should never be.

Words are easy to come by, actions are far more accurate.

When

2007-07-17T05:40:00.001-07:00

When the daylights gone and your on your own
And you need a friend, just to be around
I will comfort you, I will take your hand,
I will pull you through, I will understand,
And you know that
I'll be at your side,
There's no need to worry,
Together we'll survive,
Through the haste and hurry,
I'll be at your side, if you feel like you're alone,
And you have nowhere to turn, I'll be at your side,
If life's standing still, and your souls confused,
And you cannot find what road to choose,
If you make mistakes you can't let me down,
I will still believe, I won't turn around,
I'll be at your side,
There's no need to worry,
Together we'll survive,
Through the haste and hurry,

I believed

2007-07-17T05:33:00.001-07:00

1. I believe that life is there to enjoy.
2. I believe crushes are there to crush hearts.
3. I believe true love is there from the start.
4. I believe you should give people chances.
5. I believe you should treat people the same because you never know what they will do for you in the future.

6. I believe that good things will come to people who work hard.
7. I believe great things come to people who never give up.
8. I believe silence will teach you something if you listen hard.
9. I believe that the heart leads you in the right direction if you follow it.
10. I believe friends are needed no matter who you are.

11. I believe family should stick by your side.
12. I believe God will help you if you believe in him and trust him.
13. I believe drugs destroy.
14. I believe sleep calms the soul.
15. I believe the heart and soul are more important than looks.

16. I believe trust helps the world go round.
17. I believe love brings great things.
18. I believe kids could teach adults a lot if adults would just listen.
19.I believe pets are great because they listen and love you no matter what you look like.
20. I believe you should always chase your dreams.

21. I believe hope is something everyone needs.
22. I believe you need to make time for fun.
23. I believe music soothes the soul.
24. I believe that money cannot buy happiness.
25. I believe books can take you anywhere.

26. I believe jokes have to be there to keep people sane.
27. I believe people are special the way they are.
28. I believe that true friends will last a lifetime.
29. I believe that enjoying what you do will help you enjoy life more.
30. I believe parents are more important than you think.

31. I believe the sky is the limit.
32. I believe you should shoot for the stars.
33. I believe being loved and loving are two totally different things.
34. I believe that you have to love yourself before you can love others.
35. I believe records are made to be broken.

36. I believe promises should be kept.
37. I believe brothers and sisters are made to teach.
38. I believe a simple smile can make anybody's day better.
39. I believe that being popular is not the key to life.
40. I believe in being nice to nerds because you might grow up and have to work for one.

PINK

2007-07-17T05:27:00.000-07:00

I like pink because it describes the love of my heart
when ever I feel pinky, it makes my world so wild
so wild that keeps my heart beats so fast
so fast that keeps my life colorful
its sounds like thunder when the night time falls in my bed
its sounds like slurrping when my mouth is eating an icecream
it sounds like water falling down in my skin when its shade touches my feelings
when I eat my favorite apple
I taste the pink color instead of red
I taste it like its in my tastebud when I was born
pink makes me feel great
happy and smiling
most of all it makes me feel always in the mood for love
Pink can make me live like a sweet child forever

Baby lets sing this in your bday!!!

2007-07-08T20:01:00.000-07:00

WAY BACK IN TO LOVE

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I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh

PERFECT

2007-07-05T17:58:00.001-07:00

Why can't life be perfect?
Why can't life be packaged up nicely, complete with an instruction booklet?
Why can't we see the future so we can make perfect decisions?
Smell the Roses!
LIFE IS GGGRRREAT!

Life is a road we travel.
Learning comes along the way.
If we cannot learn as we live, where is the gain?
Yes, there is pain and there is heartbreak, but there is also love and forgiveness.
Open your heart and enjoy your journey.

Dont hide your feelings

2007-07-05T17:48:00.000-07:00

How often do we keep our feelings to ourselves? Unless we are happy, glad, or joyful we somehow feel that we are imposing on people with our darker moments. Nothing could be further from the truth. When you trust someone enough to share the times when you are down, sad, or depressed you are telling them you trust them enough to care about and like you no matter how you feel. You give them a gift by doing this. And you allow them the opportunity to take care of you the way you would want to care for them if they were in a bad place.

Don't hide your feelings. Sharing them is not an imposition, it is an honor.

I am glad to have found you . With you I am exposing everything in my self. With you I have a hero and someone I could really call my own.
I trust you with my life.
You give me so much joys and happiness.
And I will curse the day we bade goodbye for each other.
I love you so much.

What Kind of Sexy Girl Am I?

2007-07-04T03:00:00.000-07:00

You Are Glam Sexy

You live for flaunting your sexiness, and you totally work it.
Why not? You've got the goods - you might as well use them.
You're 100% woman, and you never go out without looking your best.
After all, you never can tell when you might bump into Mr. Perfect!

What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

my color test

2007-07-04T02:58:00.001-07:00

Your Power Color Is Magenta

At Your Highest:

You energize yourself and push others to suceed.

At Your Lowest:

You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.

In Love:

You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.

How You're Attractive:

Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.

Your Eternal Question:

"What is my next source of inspiration?"

What's Your Power Color?

You make me happy

2007-06-28T04:30:00.000-07:00

June 28,2007
He spend time for me. I was really surprised. He seems to be more sweet and more loving.
He makes time! I'm so happy.

This night our soul journeyed in a one place called love. We feel each other. Breath together and we really have a wonderful moment.

iNSTALLING LOVE

2007-06-26T22:04:00.000-07:00

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer : Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you
guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do
first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located Your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay
to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What Programs are running ?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment
running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your disrupt
other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a
module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to
completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent
Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this
as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been
completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to
begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not
run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everybody gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.
God/Tech Support: You're Welcome, Anytime!

better than saying i love you

2007-06-22T04:27:00.000-07:00

(this is a true to life experience of my client. One night when we are having our meeting presentation, he shared this experience to us. I was moved by the story and I hope someday if I get married,my husband will also be faithful like the man in this story.) could it be you baby?

Marty woke up at home one day with a huge hangover.
He forced himself to open his eyes, and the
first thing he saw was a couple of aspirins and
a glass of water on the side table.

He sat down and saw his clothing in front of
him, all clean and pressed. Marty looked
around the room and saw that it was in
perfect order, clean & spotless.
So was the rest of the house. He took the
aspirins and noticed a note on the table, "Honey,
breakfast is on the stove; I left early to go shopping.
Love you."

So he went to the kitchen and sure enough
there was hot breakfast and the morning
newspaper. His son was also at the table,
eating.

Marty asked, "Son, what happened last
night?"

His son said, "Well, you came home after
3A.M., all drunk and delirious. Broke some
furniture, puked in the hallway, and gave yourself a
black eye when you stumbled into the door! "

Confused, Marty asked, "So, why is
everything in so perfect order and so clean, and
why is breakfast waiting for me on the table?"

His son replied, "Oh, that!
Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she
tried to take your pants off, you said,
"Leave me alone lady, I'm married!"

Haunted From The Grave

2007-06-18T06:55:00.001-07:00

An old man and woman were married for years even though they hated each other. When they had a confrontation, screams and yelling could be heard deep into the night. A constant statement was heard by the neighbors who feared the man the most.

"When I die I will dig my way up and out of the grave to come back and haunt you for the rest of your life!"

They believed he practiced black magic and was responsible for missing cats and dogs, and strange sounds at all hours. He was feared and enjoyed the respect it garnished.

He died abruptly under strange circumstances and the funeral had a closed casket. After the burial, the wife went straight to the local bar and began to party as if there was no tomorrow.

The gaiety of her actions were becoming extreme while her neighbors approached in a group to ask these questions: Are you not afraid? Concerned? Worried? that this man who practiced black magic and stated when he died he would dig his way up and out of the grave to come back and haunt you for the rest of your life?

The wife put down her drink and said, "Let the jerk dig. I had him buried upside down."

Rush hour

2007-06-06T20:24:00.000-07:00

2 days ago together with my client, we climbed a mountain and monitor thier environmental compliance to Sarangani Bay.
We have a lot of fun!!!
Then as I was working today wearing this low-neckline blouse, I realized how lucky am I to have a twin mountain as well. The gift of nature. hehehehehe
Wanna climb my mountains?
In your dreams.....

Seriously.....
Whenever I feel pressured submitting my report for defense, I will just sleep in my working chair near my bed like shown in the photo above. Mmmm.... sexy posing.
Here I find some topic difficult and was still trying to study and understand it more.
Since I feel tired, I decided to shoot my position and then I was sleeping already.

I was also happy in a way because i am starting to lose my weight. I really pray that before September Im already skinny. Geeez....

This Morning

2007-06-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

I realized that I was too open about how I feel for my pinkish.
I know its wrong.
It is wrong!!!!
But why despite all self control I exerted
I always end up feeling guilty and loose
And then crave for more.....
wanting ..... begging....

I am crazy.

I was too open for this morning.
Though I love it but I really felt
like I have sold everything in me including my soul.

Im not deserving to be a perfect wife for anyone
I am so dirty.

Is loving really giving all?
All including your morale?

Its my fault.
I was too weak to control my feelings....
too weak.....

A very long day

2007-06-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

It was an enjoyable and long climbing job I ever have after a year of working as an environmental writer preparing for the IEE of some industrial company here in General Santos City.
Today together with the Project Company Officer and other office staff we climb the mountains where they have planted trees as thier environmental support for General Santos City.

Here are some of my blurred pictures.

Common Mistakes in English

2007-05-26T14:15:00.000-07:00

Mistakes we commonly make While Speaking English (Part-1)

English is considered one of the most difficult languages to learn. After all, you have to keep in mind all the exceptions, rules, irregular tenses and other oddities.

Don't abandon hope if you're having trouble. Keep reading our reader-driven, English bloopers series, and before long you'll be an expert!

~ I bought new furnitures for the bedroom.

~ Please bring along the film equipments!

~ Display the datas in a graph.

~ Did you see the deers in the forest?

~ There were many pretty womans at the party!

~ What were the different criterias for joining?

~ I'm interested in misunderstood phenomenas.

The common problem linking these bloopers is using the incorrect plural form of the noun. All of them have 's' added on to the end when it is unnecessary. The correct version would be:

~ I bought new furniture for the bedroom. (Furniture is plural as well as singular.)

~ Please bring along the film equipment! (Equipment is plural as well as singular.)

~ Display the data in a graph. (Datum is singular; data is plural.)

~ Did you see the deer in the forest? (Deer is singular and plural.)

~ There were many pretty women at the party! (Woman is singular; women is plural.)

~ What were the different criteria for joining? (Criterion is singular; criteria is plural.)

~ I'm interested in misunderstood phenomena. (Phenomenon is singular; phenomena is plural.)

Another bloopers

Blooper no 1:

~ Every Sunday, I take headbath.

The correct version should be:

~ Every Sunday, I wash my hair.

Blooper no 2:

~ I sended that parcel.

This is common mistake. English has many irregular verbs in the past tense. Sent is the past form of send.

~ I sent that parcel.

Blooper no 3:

~ I will call you today night.

Just dissecting the word, to-day, shows the origin. It means during the day. Therefore, you should use to-night.

~ I will call you tonight

Blooper no 4:

~ Can I have your name?

~ Can I go to the toilet?

~ Can I hold your hand?

This is one of the most common misuses of a word in the English language. Of course you *can* have someone's name, just as easily as you *can* go the toilet or hold someone's hand. Can means whether or not you are able to do it. May means whether or not you have permission to do it.

~ May I have your name?

~ May I go to the toilet?

~ May I hold your hand?

Lovielly, a 29-year-old Enviromental Writer and Preschool Teacher, says that many people make mistakes with irregular nouns, especially when changing them into plural form.

Boat on the river

2007-05-21T19:06:00.001-07:00

WHY DO I GO CRAZY EVERYTIME I THINK OF YOU BABY?

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Bagong ligo

2007-05-21T18:26:00.000-07:00

Trying to be fab

2007-05-21T17:51:00.000-07:00

Positive attitude

2007-05-16T11:12:00.000-07:00

(In a certain portion of my life I wanna do this: DELETING )
I dont know if I have loved so selflessly or I have been loving the other way.
I have been so sensitive and demanding. Many times I told my self to give him
freedom from me.
I am only hurting him. I dont think he deserves me. I have always been asking too
much. Too much that he had a hard time to give. If loving him is hurting
him, I dont want to love anymore.
If I have been making him so sad, then I detest the day I meet him.
If I have been making him crazy, then I wanna kill my self.
I should have not loved someone younger than me.
I dont like my heart anymore.
I wanna tear it and put it in a garbage can.

HOW TO START YOUR DAY WITH A POSITIVE ATTITUDE :

1 . Open a new file in your PC .

2. Name it "My Heart"

3. Send it to the RECYCLE BIN

4 . Empty the RECYCLE BIN

5. Your PC will ask you, "Are you sure you want to delete Your Heart permanently? "

6. Answer calmly, "Yes," and press the mouse button firmly....

7 . Feel better?
HAVE A NICE DAY AND FROM NOW ON LIVE WITH OUT YOUR HEART

Here without you baby

2007-05-15T21:04:00.000-07:00

Here Without You (...

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

The Beauty of Betty Boop

2007-05-15T04:01:00.000-07:00

The beauty of Betty Boop
Is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries,
Or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of Betty Boop
Must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.

The beauty of Betty Boop
Is not in a facial mole,
Butthe true beauty Betty Boop
Is reflected in her soul.

It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows,
The beauty of Betty Boop
With passing years-only grows.

Lucky is man who is the first love of Betty Boop,
but luckier is the Betty Boop who is the last love of Spiderdad (hopefully!)

Strength

2007-05-15T03:50:00.000-07:00

It is how I overcome my burden that measures my strength.

The First Time I Love Forever

2007-05-15T00:12:00.000-07:00

You know Bebek, this song will really tell you how exactly my love goes for you.....
Just look into my eyes and feel my sincerity.

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Im back

2007-05-14T20:51:00.000-07:00

After days of work I am back with a happy heart.
The work was quite tiring but I was very happy and inspired.
I was not able to chat with my bebek but I really know how much he loves me that is why I am secured and happy.

I came from another world. The underwater world!
Though I have only dived at 10 feet deep, Im still contented. Im not a professional diver but the photos and video footages that was given to me were enough already to be satisfied underworld.

When we finished documenting, I was so excited going home and tell my bebek the story about my adventure in Glan and Tamble Sarangani Bay.

And true, my spiderdad was really there waiting!!!!!
Im soo soooo happy... The man I love was waiting for me... hehehehehe (I am so flirtyyy...)

If there is omne thing I really wished for to complete my happiness.... that is to tighten my tummyyyy...

It is hard to diet..... but whenever im checking my body and find out that something is really changing.... I feel better.

I wanna be super sexy like Beyonce!!! Ewwww!!!! My friends would really laughed at me.... I am so obseessed to lost weight now.... What do you think, ha? he-he-heh!!!

Being confident

2007-05-06T23:09:00.000-07:00

Being confident and positve will make you a well-rounded individual.
Look at me today.
I am happy
so I look refreshing....
I would like to be this invigorating.
It will help you shine in everything you do.
So being inlove makes you confident and happy.
And so being inlove keeps your heart smiling all day.

When inlove

2007-05-06T21:25:00.001-07:00

You feel sexy when you are inlove!

My mood swings

2007-05-06T21:25:00.000-07:00

When feeling flirty and hungry

When satisfied and feeling easy

When feeling happy and so jolly

ooopppssss but when feeling bored and angry....
You better signed off.
Catwoman will eat you like a wolf.

( Nonsense! Har har har)

Andy Garcia's Killer kisses

2007-05-06T03:13:00.000-07:00

I wish that somebody I love would kiss me the way Andy G. kisses her woman!
I have been watching that kissing scene many times and I am still overwhelmed by it. And look at the way my one great love hugs her woman here!!! Very sensual and mmmmm..... he's gorgeous!!!
If only I was the woman?
Ayyyyy..... I will be chilling to death.....
A happy happy death.
Huh!!! I was wondering what is happening to me now?

Well, today I am very happy.
I am back to my natural self.
Confident
Loving
Selfless (ehermmm)
and
Romantic.
(knock! Knock! Am I okey? geezzz...)

I am your moon Andy!!!

2007-05-06T02:55:00.000-07:00

I will shine on you in the darkest hour of your life, Andy.
The moon is me!!!!!

How loveable my Andy could be!
He is everything for me.
Everything I could wish for in this universe.
Arrrghhh I am dreaming again....
Sign of aging? Nyahah...

She is a woman

2007-05-05T04:34:00.000-07:00

Sensitive
Changeable mind
Curious
Inquisitive
Immature
Childish
Loving
Sharing
Joyfull
Carefree
but....
but....
When hurt
she will write
When sad she will cry
When alone she will reach out
because happiness is a decision
And she decided to be happy to share love to people who needs her
People who loves her
and even to the those that let her down
She will always rise...
and will try to survive
against all obstacle
against all odds
you know why?
because she is a woman.

Happy Woman's month day !!!
(self-declared hehehehe)

I accept

2007-05-05T03:10:00.000-07:00

Today I was not given the chance to see him. It is really sad to spend a day without him. I know many times he told me not to be sad but gezz.... what can I do? I am sad today. But. but. I believed him it just that I am lonely. I heared this song and decided to published it here along with my emotions I felt for this day. So much ado about my feelings. The song by my favorite filipino band Side A will tell it all. Poilah!!

Side A -11- I Acce...

Remember the times when we said
Our love would never end
I do, I still love you
My love is true, only for you
And now, I never thought it would be
You're love would all disappear for me
Am to blame
All that I know, there's so much pain

I just have to accept your goodbyes
I just have to accept even though my heart cries
I accept, when you said to me
That our loves not meant to be
Guess from now on
All I can do is accept

You gave me those sweet memories
Times when it's still you and me
Each day, I'm holding you near
All of our dreams, all seems so clear
And now, all those dreams are all gone
Now that it's all said done
It's true, that our love is through
Now I'm alone
Guess I'm alone

You said I'll be forever
No more goodbyes, ever, never
Now that you're gone
I'll have to go on

He is ready

2007-05-02T04:25:00.000-07:00

He was ready to marry me!
Now it was me who is scared.
I dont know why.
Despite of my eagerness to live my life with him until we grow old
I still feel something inside me in which at this point of time is undescribable.
I feel so excited living a life with him in a new different world.
Different people
Different culture
Different language
and everything.

We have talked about this last night. Asking me what I want and he on the other hand was telling me what he wants.
What a wonderful conversation.
I was so happy that somehow I really feel how strong his love for me.

As a woman, I am very proud of him
He shown me how it is to be loved
That he would rather feel the pain
And showered me with all his care and attention

I have seen his effort
Many many times of uplifting me and making me a better person
with him I am mentally and emotionally growing
We may have many diffrences but I honestly feel peaceful with him

I learned from him that life is so simple.
The more you worry about something, the more likely it is that will haunt you. And when you worry less about something, the less it becomes of a problem.

He talks like a king.
So sure of what he is talking.
He was so strong yet a gentle and loving husband to be.
He was also very eager to become the father of my children.
Children, that are plenty.
I am scared that may destroy my curvy licious body, har har.

We just realized that we are incridibly comfortable with each other.
Neither of us had to put our best foot forward.
It is like slipping into a new pair of jeans that feel old.
It just felt like this guy worn me before. These are mine.

With him I also feel more confortable.
we just figure out who we were in just a short time and we knew what to give to the other.

I love you

2007-04-30T18:25:00.000-07:00

My spiderman,

Where ever you are right now, please believed me when I say I love you so dearly.
Dont mind my unreasonable jealousy.
Somehow I thank you for always making an effort to assured me of your love.
I am so lucky I have you.
My god..... are you real?

JEALOUSY

2007-04-30T17:36:00.000-07:00

My most awaited moment in a day is dawn time around 4:00 am here in the philippines. My Bebek is always on-line waiting for me everyday. I can not imagine a day without him. Yah, I think this is love.

Today I was only asking him about the first time we met in the net.
We have so much fun until we have talked about her pretty chinese friend who's family lives in Manila. The girl is so damn good for she had been supporting her family for a living while working in Hongkong or Taiwan.

They were friend for two months and I was very jealous.
I realized that the world is so wide and I am not the only pretty babe in this universe.
Though I dont have reasons to be worried because I beleived him.
He loves me so dearly.
He takes good care of me.
He just want me to be happy.
It is just that he was very honest telling me that he is not yet ready committing marriage for me.
In which I agreed.
Marriage is a tough decision.
It is your life.
One wrong moved will ruin everything.
So better not rushed it.
Better enjoy the moments both of you are making.

My jealousy takes me nowhere but hurting him.
I have always hurt his feelings.
Telling him things that are not really good to hear.
Am I still human?
He needs to sleep today because I drained his brain.
He needs to sleep today because I was becoming immature
and yet I still feel bad for everything is not clear to me.
I was confused.

And I also need to take a break.
Why jealous and why worry when everything seems okey.
Am I that insecure?
Am I that scared losing him?
Is he my life?
Does he have my heart?
If so, then what will I do?

He is not my property.
I dont owned him
He must have his life still
Even when he committed his heart only for me
He must still live life the way he wanted it to be.

Why would I demand for more?
Why would I hurt him so?

I hate making him sad but it seems like we have difficulties understanding each other.
Yet I am willing to take the risk
I am willing to sacrifice
but that sacrifices needs an assurance.
What the heck
I am becoming more confused.

I was so jealous that I have even accepted a
seminar workshop to be conducted for days in the South
Thinking that I will not be able to see him for days.
I will miss him for sure.

But I guess he needs time to think with out me
As I also need time to think with out him

I hope I can bear the pain of not seeing him for days.
I hope he will still love me after all

This jealousy is really bad.
I dont want to feel this again because I can not think well.

I WILL BE HERE

2007-04-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

(From the house of Ev)

I remember the time I graduated from college. This was the song we used to sing. During the practice days, the teacher in-charged would tell me to cooperate. Nanggugulo lang talaga ako o di kaya'y parating alis lang ng alis sa puwesto na para bang kinakathan ng puwet at hindi mapakali. I may forget the name of that teacher but his face still lingers in my mind. I guess his name is Mr. Espelita. I was one of his favorite. I dont know basta malakas lang ako sa kanya. He find me smart and intelligent! (hehehehe... ayaw na palag dira please lang...) Ewan ko lang.... sobrang gifted ako sa Public Relation ekk ekk noon.. I wonder bakit nawala noong SMIC days.

Back to my college topic. I had never appreciated this song. Even during the time that we were singing it already on our seat as part of the real graduation ceremony. Paano nga ba eh, my mom was very angry to me because I lost the pendant that was given to me by my grandmother. I dont feel happy graduating, maybe because my besfren Ev will be left behind. I know she was happy for me but I also feel her pain of roaming all alone but new friends remembering our happy times together with Janet. si janet naman mas naunang gumadweyt sa amin... mas matanda naman kasi yun hehehehe. But well, life has to go on.
God has a purpose for everything.

I was surfing her blogsite until I have found this song. Though my voice resembles the withchy ichy voice, I was still trying to sing it. Wala lang. Trip. What else?

Suddenly, I was moved by the song.
I remember every person who gives impact and happiness to my life.

And I also remember the special person who let me discover more about myself. Those that I have not known and those that I have not expected to be known.

Whatever it is, I must say that I am happy that he become a part of my life....
Situations may be difficult but for sure we can fathom.

This song is dedicated to the person who calls me Angel. I am so flattered that somehow in my little ways I have inspired you.

Tomorrow mornin’ if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I… I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
‘Cause I… I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like bein’ quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen

And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin’
Through the winnin’ and losin’ and tryin’
We’ll be together
‘Cause I will be here

Tomorrow mornin’ if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I… I’ll be here
Just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
I… I will be here

I will be here
You can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we’re older
I will hold you

And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true
To the promise I have made
To you and to the
One who gave you to me

I… I will be here

And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
‘Cause I…
I will be here….
We’ll be together, forever

‘Cause I will be here
I will be here

Photographs and memories

2007-04-29T03:07:00.001-07:00

Photographs will help us understand who we are and from whom we become.
Somebody said (but I forgot who he is) that photos are precious pieces of life tha can be held in the hand.

This blog was introduced to me by my Bestfriend. So from jotting down in my diaries I then trasfer into blogging. From here I am now organizing a wonderful memories I have with my family, friends and love ones. Labelling my golden moments is surely a hit. A memory that would last a lifetime na pwede kong ipamana sa aking mga magiging anak, apo, eheehee and all those who will see their reflected faces in the photograph and all those who will read their part in my life.

My father appreciated my blog. I just showed it to him just now. He was so amazed. Heheheheh my ever number one fan.

He told me that it is a renewed sense of identity.
Wowoweeee.... ang lalim kaya?

Mao run.... nainspired noon ko to do a family heirloom. You know when I will finish it... i will compound my sense of satisfaction by offering help to my friends to do the same.

Anyway, with this we could make a maze or a door or a window to our past.

Murag computer gyapun... hyperlinking lang ng linking.... geeeez....

Grandma

2007-04-28T18:53:00.000-07:00

He told me that Grandmother is sick that was why he was not able to visit me.
Oh, I was so bad. I was thinking diffrently.... I think I have not trust him enough.
He assured me though, many times that I owned his heart.

Today I made him sad again.
But I also made him Happy.
We end our conversation happy.
I introduced him to my family.
Introduced to him my provincial backyard.
He likes it.
and so I blow him all my kisses again....
He said Im sincere.... ngehehehee I hope so.... i just hope so...

CHANCES ARE

2007-04-27T13:59:00.000-07:00

Chances are you will find me somewhere on the road tonight.
Seems I always end up dropping by
Ever since I have known you
It just seems your away
Far far away from me
But you always keep in touch

Our language and logic sometimes dont comply.
I only see you in the dawn
You only see me in the night
When will I be with you?

I remember clearly how you look the time we have met
I recall your every smiles and every laugther and every time you are turning pink
I remember how you made me feel so naive
I remember all your goodness and graces
Now you are all I wanna see
But your out there somewhere working for the night
Mending your life all alone with out me

Chances are just seeing you in my dreams tonight
In my dreams I am the only one who is holding you
The only best you have ever met
Hoping you are by my side tonight
And in the morning your smile welcomes me
What a sight ! What a view!
You are the only one I can not forget
Baby you are the best I have ever got

Im sad but I have to move on
Make my day complete even if its hard
Im a woman...
so weak
when in love

My spiderdad.
Does he loves me?
I am sad ... so sad
Tell me is it worth to wait
Is it worth the time waiting for my chances with him?
I must decide to end up
how?
when?
tell me..
pleaseee
Hmmmmmm....
Chances are...........
Chances are.........

When a man loves a woman

2007-04-27T01:53:00.000-07:00

When A Man Loves A...

Titanic

2007-04-26T05:26:00.001-07:00

He said that his love for me does not grow in the water.
It does not grow in the sand.
Not in Scotty
Not in the Philippines
But in his happy heart.
Assusss. Ah!

Spiderdad's Titani...

Kung pwede lang

2007-04-26T04:33:00.000-07:00

(From TKs home)

Kung_Pwede_Lang.mp...

To my dad:

I will be out for days
working. I dont know when I will come back.
I have not told you a while ago because I dont wanna see you sad.
I believed you everytime you say that I am the water in your cactus. The rose in your garden, the flower in your heart. The water that brings you life.
How sweet......
Hope you will enjoy this filipino song.

ALONE AGAIN, NATURALLY by Vonda Shepard

2007-04-25T23:24:00.000-07:00

Alone Again - Von...

If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to whoever
What it's like when you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Where people saying: "My God, that's tough"
"She stood him up"
"No point in us remaining"
"We may as well go home"
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to, who wouldn't do?
The role I was about to play?
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about God in His mercy
Who, if He really does exist,
Why did He desert me?
In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally

It seems to me that there are more hearts
Broken in the world that can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do? What do we do?

[instrumental interlude]

Alone again, naturally

Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally

You got me

2007-04-25T17:53:00.000-07:00

You know when you sit down to me.
Make eye contact to me often
Listen to everything I say
Reads and understand everything I wrote
Adores me
Respects me
Turns really pink every time I teased you
Blushing every time you see me
Reminds me whenever I was wrong

YOU GOT ME.

Andy Garcia

2007-04-25T00:14:00.000-07:00

I love every trace of him....

Angel

2007-04-24T02:09:00.000-07:00

Having your way is a lot easier when you have more than one way. I dont limit my self. Who cares? This world is mine.

Reaching for love

2007-04-24T01:56:00.000-07:00

I have reach him and touched the sky
I decided not to be left behind
Not afraid to try

I reach beyond and I learn anew
I did not hesitate-not the same old Betty

I reach beyond to test my limit
I was surprised I am no longer timid

I have reach beyond flirting
Should I look back?

Am I so inlove
that I have not tried to stretch my mind?

I reach for Spiderman
I reach for friendship
I reach for love

Does he care?
Does he love?

Im not sure
If he is pure

Should I expect the best?
Or give up the quest?

Should I reach beyond and claim my space?
Here and now, this time and in this space?

Im scared to claim his heart and soar
Should I give him up or take him once more?

(Hay grabeng atikk.... kasabot kaha sya?)

Duysa nasıl sevdiğimi melekler ağlar...

Posing removes boundaries

2007-04-23T00:53:00.000-07:00

View me in darkness

Acting on impulse

Scary smile

Feeling sexy

Breath and die

Lets have fun today

2007-04-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

If your goal seems overwhelming.... pause, take a breath, have fun and watch me... (nyehehehe)

aha aha you'll like me!

2007-04-20T18:57:00.000-07:00

I am the song that fills you.
So why would I be jealous?

I will rather....

2007-04-20T08:28:00.000-07:00

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I am believing in you
I hope I am not mistaken
I really want our love to last forever

I rather choose you to be mean
Than give me lie
I will rather hear the truth and
Have to say goodbye
I will rather take a blow and
Listen, i dont know
But baby my love is true for you

I like the way you say honey
Every middle of the night when I am sleeping (Phiippines) and
Every morning when you are about to sleep(Turkey)
I am believing in you
I hope I am not mistaken
Do you mean what I want?
I want our love to last forever

My prayer

2007-04-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

I wanna give my love to you completely
I beg of you to listen to my heart
I have never prayed like this before
And I am asking you not to close the door
For I contend the wind
And saw the waters
If you just love me

I wanna give all the strength within me
To make a world that can not fall apart
And you stay upon the throne
Or I give it all just for you alone
For I contend the wind
And saw the waters
If you just love me

Dont Look Back

2007-04-18T01:05:00.000-07:00

DON'T LOOK BACK
As you travel through life there are always those times
When decisions just have to be made,
When the choices are hard, and solutions seem scarce,
And the rain seems to soak your parade.

There are some situations where all you can do
Is simply let go and move on,
Gather your courage and choose a direction
That carries you toward a new dawn.

So pack up your troubles and take a step forward -
The process of change can be tough,
But think about all the excitement ahead
If you can be stalwart enough!

There might be adventures you never imagined
Just waiting around the next bend,
And wishes and dreams just about to come true
In ways you can't yet comprehend!

Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new things
As you challenge your status quo,
And learn there are so many options in life,
And so many ways you can grow!

Perhaps you'll go places you never expected
And see things that you've never seen,
Or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds
And wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you'll find warmth and affection and caring
And somebody special who's there
To help you stay centered and listen with interest
To stories and feelings you share.

Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends
Are supportive of all that you do,
And believe that whatever decisions you make,
They'll be the right choices for you.

So keep putting one foot in front of the other,
And taking your life day by day...
There's a brighter tomorrow that's just down the road -
Don't look back! You're not going that way!

Not a broken-hearted witch!

2007-04-18T00:59:00.000-07:00

Don't trust her. She'll break you!

2007-04-17T15:36:00.000-07:00

ahahahaha!

Huggybear

2007-04-16T18:25:00.000-07:00

I miss you already.
I wanna fly there in Scotland.
Maybe in time, I can finally touch you
Feel your warmth and hears your heart beat

For now
Feel the wind
My kisses are there for you
It whispers my longing to see you
While you are sleeping and hugging your pillows
Thinking it would be me
Sleeping in your arms

I think I am in love

2007-04-16T17:45:00.000-07:00

What is this I'm feeling
I just cant explain
When you are here
I am just not the same

I tried to hide it
Try not to show it
But its crazy
How could it be?

I have falling for you
Finally
My heart gave in

And I have falling in love
Tell me how could it be?
So this is love?

Remember how to think like a child

2007-04-14T22:20:00.000-07:00

In the movie Young Frankenstein, Gene Wilder is saying good-bye to his sweetheart, Madeline Khan. He steps to embrace her but is immediately rebuffed with "The hair. The hair." All his attempt to bid his affectionate adieu are foiled because she doesn't want anything "mussed". That is exactly how some peole live their lives. As adults, many of us need the child-like enthusiasm that will allow us to loosen and live.

You cant make positive difference in the live of others by becoming dreary old fuddydud.

I was a bit like Madeline Khan this morning while chatting to my bestfriend Murat. I got conscious into the way I look. I was so excited to listen to his folklore music that I even forgot to fix my self before facing him in the webcam. But I am okey now, I just realized that any woman looks more prettier everytime she wakes up in the morning, hehehe.

Before going to work today, I decided to lie in the ground and watch the clouds roll by together with my nieces and nephews and I played hide and seek with my two year-old cute pamangkin named IGIBOY (Nephew). We hugged each other with out any reservations.
You know what? I feel good and it brightens my world!

By the way, I just got my self fixed and I feel so sexy going to my meeting today.

Here is what I realized today:

Loosen up, lighten up, and love with a child's heart.
Regardless if you look abit mystical. BOOOOO.... mooo mooooo

One more thing.... I will consider repainting my room and my cabinet. Modern version. hehehe

Nakakatakot

2007-04-14T03:59:00.000-07:00

Ayokong maging lumba-lumba.
Kaya kahit tinatamad akong mag exercise araw araw ay kinakaya ko.

I don't wanna see my self walking like a drum in the street.
God forbid, wag naman sana.