Andy Garcia's Killer kisses

I wish that somebody I love would kiss me the way Andy G. kisses her woman!
I have been watching that kissing scene many times and I am still overwhelmed by it. And look at the way my one great love hugs her woman here!!! Very sensual and mmmmm..... he's gorgeous!!!
If only I was the woman?
Ayyyyy..... I will be chilling to death.....
A happy happy death.
Huh!!! I was wondering what is happening to me now?

Well, today I am very happy.
I am back to my natural self.
Confident
Loving
Selfless (ehermmm)
and
Romantic.
(knock! Knock! Am I okey? geezzz...)

I am your moon Andy!!!

I will shine on you in the darkest hour of your life, Andy.
The moon is me!!!!!

How loveable my Andy could be!
He is everything for me.
Everything I could wish for in this universe.
Arrrghhh I am dreaming again....
Sign of aging? Nyahah...

She is a woman

Sensitive
Changeable mind
Curious
Inquisitive
Immature
Childish
Loving
Sharing
Joyfull
Carefree
but....
but....
When hurt
she will write
When sad she will cry
When alone she will reach out
because happiness is a decision
And she decided to be happy to share love to people who needs her
People who loves her
and even to the those that let her down
She will always rise...
and will try to survive
against all obstacle
against all odds
you know why?
because she is a woman.

Happy Woman's month day !!!
(self-declared hehehehe)

I accept

Today I was not given the chance to see him. It is really sad to spend a day without him. I know many times he told me not to be sad but gezz.... what can I do? I am sad today. But. but. I believed him it just that I am lonely. I heared this song and decided to published it here along with my emotions I felt for this day. So much ado about my feelings. The song by my favorite filipino band Side A will tell it all. Poilah!!

Side A -11- I Acce...

Remember the times when we said
Our love would never end
I do, I still love you
My love is true, only for you
And now, I never thought it would be
You're love would all disappear for me
Am to blame
All that I know, there's so much pain

I just have to accept your goodbyes
I just have to accept even though my heart cries
I accept, when you said to me
That our loves not meant to be
Guess from now on
All I can do is accept

You gave me those sweet memories
Times when it's still you and me
Each day, I'm holding you near
All of our dreams, all seems so clear
And now, all those dreams are all gone
Now that it's all said done
It's true, that our love is through
Now I'm alone
Guess I'm alone

You said I'll be forever
No more goodbyes, ever, never
Now that you're gone
I'll have to go on

He is ready

He was ready to marry me!
Now it was me who is scared.
I dont know why.
Despite of my eagerness to live my life with him until we grow old
I still feel something inside me in which at this point of time is undescribable.
I feel so excited living a life with him in a new different world.
Different people
Different culture
Different language
and everything.

We have talked about this last night. Asking me what I want and he on the other hand was telling me what he wants.
What a wonderful conversation.
I was so happy that somehow I really feel how strong his love for me.

As a woman, I am very proud of him
He shown me how it is to be loved
That he would rather feel the pain
And showered me with all his care and attention

I have seen his effort
Many many times of uplifting me and making me a better person
with him I am mentally and emotionally growing
We may have many diffrences but I honestly feel peaceful with him

I learned from him that life is so simple.
The more you worry about something, the more likely it is that will haunt you. And when you worry less about something, the less it becomes of a problem.

He talks like a king.
So sure of what he is talking.
He was so strong yet a gentle and loving husband to be.
He was also very eager to become the father of my children.
Children, that are plenty.
I am scared that may destroy my curvy licious body, har har.

We just realized that we are incridibly comfortable with each other.
Neither of us had to put our best foot forward.
It is like slipping into a new pair of jeans that feel old.
It just felt like this guy worn me before. These are mine.

With him I also feel more confortable.
we just figure out who we were in just a short time and we knew what to give to the other.

I love you

My spiderman,

Where ever you are right now, please believed me when I say I love you so dearly.
Dont mind my unreasonable jealousy.
Somehow I thank you for always making an effort to assured me of your love.
I am so lucky I have you.
My god..... are you real?

I WILL BE HERE

(From the house of Ev)

I remember the time I graduated from college. This was the song we used to sing. During the practice days, the teacher in-charged would tell me to cooperate. Nanggugulo lang talaga ako o di kaya'y parating alis lang ng alis sa puwesto na para bang kinakathan ng puwet at hindi mapakali. I may forget the name of that teacher but his face still lingers in my mind. I guess his name is Mr. Espelita. I was one of his favorite. I dont know basta malakas lang ako sa kanya. He find me smart and intelligent! (hehehehe... ayaw na palag dira please lang...) Ewan ko lang.... sobrang gifted ako sa Public Relation ekk ekk noon.. I wonder bakit nawala noong SMIC days.

Back to my college topic. I had never appreciated this song. Even during the time that we were singing it already on our seat as part of the real graduation ceremony. Paano nga ba eh, my mom was very angry to me because I lost the pendant that was given to me by my grandmother. I dont feel happy graduating, maybe because my besfren Ev will be left behind. I know she was happy for me but I also feel her pain of roaming all alone but new friends remembering our happy times together with Janet. si janet naman mas naunang gumadweyt sa amin... mas matanda naman kasi yun hehehehe. But well, life has to go on.
God has a purpose for everything.

I was surfing her blogsite until I have found this song. Though my voice resembles the withchy ichy voice, I was still trying to sing it. Wala lang. Trip. What else?

Suddenly, I was moved by the song.
I remember every person who gives impact and happiness to my life.

And I also remember the special person who let me discover more about myself. Those that I have not known and those that I have not expected to be known.

Whatever it is, I must say that I am happy that he become a part of my life....
Situations may be difficult but for sure we can fathom.

This song is dedicated to the person who calls me Angel. I am so flattered that somehow in my little ways I have inspired you.



Tomorrow mornin’ if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I… I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
‘Cause I… I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like bein’ quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen

And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin’
Through the winnin’ and losin’ and tryin’
We’ll be together
‘Cause I will be here

Tomorrow mornin’ if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I… I’ll be here
Just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
I… I will be here

I will be here
You can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we’re older
I will hold you

And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true
To the promise I have made
To you and to the
One who gave you to me

I… I will be here

And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
‘Cause I…
I will be here….
We’ll be together, forever

‘Cause I will be here
I will be here

Photographs and memories

Photographs will help us understand who we are and from whom we become.
Somebody said (but I forgot who he is) that photos are precious pieces of life tha can be held in the hand.

This blog was introduced to me by my Bestfriend. So from jotting down in my diaries I then trasfer into blogging. From here I am now organizing a wonderful memories I have with my family, friends and love ones. Labelling my golden moments is surely a hit. A memory that would last a lifetime na pwede kong ipamana sa aking mga magiging anak, apo, eheehee and all those who will see their reflected faces in the photograph and all those who will read their part in my life.

My father appreciated my blog. I just showed it to him just now. He was so amazed. Heheheheh my ever number one fan.

He told me that it is a renewed sense of identity.
Wowoweeee.... ang lalim kaya?

Mao run.... nainspired noon ko to do a family heirloom. You know when I will finish it... i will compound my sense of satisfaction by offering help to my friends to do the same.

Anyway, with this we could make a maze or a door or a window to our past.

Murag computer gyapun... hyperlinking lang ng linking.... geeeez....

CHANCES ARE

Chances are you will find me somewhere on the road tonight.
Seems I always end up dropping by
Ever since I have known you
It just seems your away
Far far away from me
But you always keep in touch

Our language and logic sometimes dont comply.
I only see you in the dawn
You only see me in the night
When will I be with you?

I remember clearly how you look the time we have met
I recall your every smiles and every laugther and every time you are turning pink
I remember how you made me feel so naive
I remember all your goodness and graces
Now you are all I wanna see
But your out there somewhere working for the night
Mending your life all alone with out me

Chances are just seeing you in my dreams tonight
In my dreams I am the only one who is holding you
The only best you have ever met
Hoping you are by my side tonight
And in the morning your smile welcomes me
What a sight ! What a view!
You are the only one I can not forget
Baby you are the best I have ever got

Im sad but I have to move on
Make my day complete even if its hard
Im a woman...
so weak
when in love

My spiderdad.
Does he loves me?
I am sad ... so sad
Tell me is it worth to wait
Is it worth the time waiting for my chances with him?
I must decide to end up
how?
when?
tell me..
pleaseee
Hmmmmmm....
Chances are...........
Chances are.........

When a man loves a woman

When A Man Loves A...

Titanic

He said that his love for me does not grow in the water.
It does not grow in the sand.
Not in Scotty
Not in the Philippines
But in his happy heart.
Assusss. Ah!

Spiderdad's Titani...

Kung pwede lang

(From TKs home)

Kung_Pwede_Lang.mp...

To my dad:

I will be out for days
working. I dont know when I will come back.
I have not told you a while ago because I dont wanna see you sad.
I believed you everytime you say that I am the water in your cactus. The rose in your garden, the flower in your heart. The water that brings you life.
How sweet......
Hope you will enjoy this filipino song.

ALONE AGAIN, NATURALLY by Vonda Shepard

Alone Again - Von...

If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to whoever
What it's like when you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Where people saying: "My God, that's tough"
"She stood him up"
"No point in us remaining"
"We may as well go home"
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to, who wouldn't do?
The role I was about to play?
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about God in His mercy
Who, if He really does exist,
Why did He desert me?
In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally

It seems to me that there are more hearts
Broken in the world that can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do? What do we do?

[instrumental interlude]

Alone again, naturally

Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally

You got me

You know when you sit down to me.
Make eye contact to me often
Listen to everything I say
Reads and understand everything I wrote
Adores me
Respects me
Turns really pink every time I teased you
Blushing every time you see me
Reminds me whenever I was wrong

YOU GOT ME.

Andy Garcia

I love every trace of him....

Angel

Having your way is a lot easier when you have more than one way. I dont limit my self. Who cares? This world is mine.

Reaching for love

I have reach him and touched the sky
I decided not to be left behind
Not afraid to try

I reach beyond and I learn anew
I did not hesitate-not the same old Betty

I reach beyond to test my limit
I was surprised I am no longer timid

I have reach beyond flirting
Should I look back?

Am I so inlove
that I have not tried to stretch my mind?

I reach for Spiderman
I reach for friendship
I reach for love

Does he care?
Does he love?

Im not sure
If he is pure

Should I expect the best?
Or give up the quest?

Should I reach beyond and claim my space?
Here and now, this time and in this space?

Im scared to claim his heart and soar
Should I give him up or take him once more?

(Hay grabeng atikk.... kasabot kaha sya?)

Duysa nasıl sevdiğimi melekler ağlar...

Posing removes boundaries

View me in darkness

Acting on impulse

Scary smile

Feeling sexy

Breath and die

Lets have fun today

If your goal seems overwhelming.... pause, take a breath, have fun and watch me... (nyehehehe)

aha aha you'll like me!

I am the song that fills you.
So why would I be jealous?